Tak Seindah.
Sunday, August 2, 2015, ϟ
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Bismillah.
Assalamualaikum. It been a while right?. For the past few months i've been manage to survive from my practical. Going ups and downs will lot of stress from school, and of course the kids there. Feel like i've died deep inside. But well still manage to survive till now. Last thursday my grandpa passed away. I don't want to tell bout it cause i will feel like there's a person cutting an onion beside me. Haha. Know what i mean kan.
So the day my grandpa passed away i was at school and for the first time in my life i was attacked by the most scary things in my life - chicken pox. Haha. Kannn. Dah tua2 bru nak kena. And now still suffer form it and Alhamdulillah its getting better. I dont know how to say. But i dont get that special treatment as everyone else get when they were sick. As for me, sakit or tak sama je. Bukan na meraih simpati or what laa kan. U know the feeling like i'm being abandon.
Well dont ask me to think positive. Its not because i dont try to be. How will u feel if u ask for someone help to bring u to the clinic to get the mc and they say 'alaaa dekat je, boleh drive kan, bukan sakit mana pon, berdikari la sendiri'. Okayy. I dont know. Mybe for some people i was being so negative thinker, being a clingy one, ngada2. You know what. I wont. And i know myself well. I will never ask for anybody help if i can do it by myself. Its not that i pleaded god to give me this sick. Im very thankful to Him cause give me this kind of illness. So that i can see with my very own eyes.
Tak mintak banyak pon. You know what. I will never ask for help anymore. It okayy. I can do it by myself. And dont worry bout me. I will get used to this kind of treatment. And im soooo soooo and deeply sorry for being a crybaby or clingy, or mengada2 and annoying to anybody. If yes just tell me. Its okayy i will accept it. I dont know where else to tell my feeling. I dont want to be burden to anyone. Im sorry if menyusahkan semua orang while im sick.
Pray for me so that after i recover i will not easily asking for someone to help me if i sick again or what. Yes. Nobody will understand me. And maybe some of u will say that im being so sensetive because im sick and so on. You know what, you dont know me. Not at all. Klau betul2 skit baru aku menangis. Klau ta aku tahan. Tu aku. Mungkin betul ckp org. Aku selalu fikirkn org sgt. Selalu pendam sangat. Last2 mcm ni laa. Haihh. Nasib kau laaa. Moga Allah bantu.
Lots of love,
Aini Afiqah.
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